So yesterday, after I posted, I went to the store. The 99 cent only store got a new shipment of Propels. I so love those. Flavored water is the way to go for me. Even before this endeavor, I was a Propel nut. Only 10 calories, 2 g of sugar and 75mg of sodium. And they taste good. How could I not love them? I bought 21 bottles (they were 3 for 99 cents) and some carrots. Well, as I was waiting in line, I’m looking around and there they were. Reese’s Peanut butter Candy Bars. They are like peanut butter cups, but in the form of a bar. Oh I love them so much. My definite weakness. My inner fat kid was doing a little jig inside me.
I promptly grabbed two. I thought about how yummy they would taste in the middle of the night while I was curled up in a blanket with a good book. Then I thought about it. How would I ever get to my goal if I was scarfing down chocolate bars. I put them back and grabbed a bag of fat free red vines instead. I love red vines almost as much. Especially while I read. I was proud of myself for all of 10 seconds.
Note: The rest of this story actually happened in my head...
It was about then my inner fat kid slapped the hell out of me! She fell into a tantrum. She kicked. She screamed, “WHAT ARE YOU DOING!? WE LOVE REESE’S! WE DESERVE THEM!” She was right. I hadn’t eaten too much the last two days. I had been drinking tons of water. Skipping fast food for sandwiches. My inner fat kid agreed. I put the Red Vines back and picked the Reese’s back into my basket. My inner fat kid smiled, satisfied. That is until my inner goddess kicked that fat little brat clear across my mind.
My inner goddess was hot. She had a body like Beyonce in the Work It Out video. You know when she was thick before she got all bony for Hova? Like this:
Only of course she looked way better ‘cause she had my adorable face and amazing curly hair. She looked fierce, strong and powerful. I had never really envisioned her before, but I knew who she was. She was the one egging me to keep going when my legs hurt. The one telling me one sandwhich was quite enough. The one who reminded me how much I hated taking those blood pressure pills. She stood victorious over my inner fat kid and then held out a hand. I don’t really know if there was a conversation but I know they came to an agreement. Once in a while, the fat kid might get a treat, but overall, the goddess was here to stay and she was in charge now. Her first order of business: NO REESE’S. Not yet anyways. She decided that it needed to be earned. So for now, Red Vines.
I think I actually sat in the line for a good minute because when I snapped out of it, the cashier was staring at me like I was retarded. I tried explaining to her what my mind set was, but I don’t think it helped. That’s ok, she can think I’m crazy. So long as I left the Reese’s at the store.
This morning the goddess did her job and persuaded me to have only two eggs instead of three and no butter on my biscuit, though she did allow jelly. Then it was off to walk.
Oh man! I found the most amazing park behind my house. Tons of hills. Spacey. I figured one time all the way around is probably about a ¼ mile. I did about ½ a mile which took me about 45 mins (I was just walking). I know it doesn’t sound like much in the scheme of things but with all the hills... Man, I am really feeling it in my thighs and butt. But it was just so beautiful. It was just hilly, green grass and willow trees. The breeze was blowing softly so I wasn’t feeling over heated. *Nsync played in my ear and reminded me of good times. It was like it was no big deal. I absolutely loved it. I’m actually excited to do it again tomorrow.
On another note, thank you to those people who are supporting me in this. I just ask that you keep doing that. I know right now I’m hyped about it, but when its rainy and cold, or hot and sticky, I am not going to want to do this and it will be you all that keep me going. Seriously, you guys are awesome!
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